My experience at a Pachamama retreat in San Diego in December was quite intense as I was given 5 different medicines over just 2.5 days. Kombo, ayahuasca, psilocybins, bufo, and Hape. I was told that this specific order of medicines had been studied in depth and that it was safe to take in this period of time. I was told that this was the shamanic practice and that Pachamama had been providing these substances in this way for many years, following the Peruvian shaman lineage. I had experience with ayahuasca, but none of the others. I initially voiced that I may not partake in all 5, as I wanted to see how I felt. I was told by the facilitator that all medicines must be taken as this will be a collective experience and when one does not participate, it affects the whole body of the group. I decided to trust what was being told to me and I went to the retreat with an open heart and mind. The facilitator and volunteers were all lovely and I felt safe and comfortable. The shaman shared joy, wisdom, and guidance throughout the retreat. The medicines seemed to be prepared and offered with respect and knowledge.
When it was time for me to smoke the bufo, i suddenly felt uncertain and uneasy. I voiced my concerns during the intention circle. I said, I’m feeling afraid and I’m not sure I want to do this. I’m mot having a great feeling about this. The shaman said that’s normal and that she is going to be with me, making sure nothing will happen to me and that I have a safe experience. I relaxed and trusted her and smoked it as directed. Initially I felt love and saw a blue Lotus flower, and understood the universe